Lately, I’ve been having
fun discovering. Or, better written, rediscovering. A start to a new year can be
stressful. Plans for the new year, ambitions, fears. But especially, fears. Fears
regarding the passing of time. As we grow older, we become more aware of the
passing of the time. I had forgotten about that!
I forgot that, when I was
myself a child, the people around me had an age that defined their identity. Uncles,
aunts, grandparents, parents, they all were big.
And in my vision, as a child, they had always been like that.
I remember the first time
I realized that even adults had, at a certain time, been younger. It was right
after I had pulled a trick that left me with my head rolled in a bandage. While
visiting an old lady, I sat in an armchair slurping from a very fizzing bottle
of Brifcor. Mom and the old lady were talking, and I – not totally swept away
by the wonderful refreshment – was looking around. Suddenly, my eyes were
caught by a framed black-and-white portrait on the chest of drawers. A young
lady with the look of a movie star was smiling charmingly.
‘Mom, who’s she?’ I
interrupted their conversation, pointing to the photograph.
‘It’s not nice to
interrupt people while talking’, my mom said and continued by telling me that
it was the old lady, in whose house we were then, when she was young.
I couldn’t believe it. The
old lady did not look at all like the woman in the photo. It was a bit too
thick! What could have happened to her? Why didn’t she look like the woman in
the photo anymore?
‘I was beautiful when I
was young, wasn’t I?!’ the old lady asked me.
‘Yes! Very’, I had replied
in a rather gracious manner.
Actually, maybe mom had
not lied to me. She used to show us pictures of her from the old times, but we
always failed to see a great difference. For us, back then, mom had always been
and continued to be young. With an implacability similar to the one of the
feeling that we were never to grow old and remain children forever. Maybe this
is the source to the children’s great wish to grow up. Today, I know that age
is just a number. But only for the child. The adult has another perspective. For it is the
adult that gives age such importance. On the contrary, the child plays with
numbers as it knows best. On an abacus. The child moves the beads around, from
right to left and from left to right and hopes that all its wishes will come
true. At the age of fourteen, to receive a Husky dog as a birthday
present. At twenty, to become an aviator. And at thirty, to become the
president of the country. And after thirty, the numbers become unavailable. It’s
the peak of maturity! And the peak of calculus.
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