Wednesday, 25 June 2025

You haven’t understood it. Read it again!


After all this time, I can finally understand what the poor teachers were referring to when, somewhat bored or tired, they stopped us in our ramblings (often nonsense beside the point) with a You haven’t understood it. Read it again! .

At the time, I thought they were being insensitive or putting on airs of superiority. Because, after all, why was it so hard for them to correct us on the spot and show/give us the correct answer? I found out, rather belatedly, that by doing so, they were not letting us become helpless, perhaps not even victims of manipulation if you get to keep doing the thinking exercise with your own mind, and not keep waiting for the right answer from someone else.

Sometimes, I wish a teacher would come along and say to me and to others You haven’t understood it. Read it again!. I don't know why, but it no longer seems to me that what's going on today can be easily explained with a I'm in a hurry, I need the answer now.

It's a contest of the rested, for many years now, and I'm often afraid I'll end up explaining how and where to look up the definition of a word you don't know (I've already had to explain that 12 a.m. is not noon).

So, I don't arrogate anything to myself, I'm just sharing in the already growing fear (of others) and thanking (a bit late, admittedly) all the teachers who said You haven’t understood it. Read it again!. Kudos to you!

Wednesday, 11 June 2025

Pulse – Julian Barnes


The wonderful Julian Barnes has delightful stories in this collection. Analyses of the soul made with rare finesse, testimonies, prejudices, expectations, disappointments, hopes.

Julian Barnes doesn't write, he brings the words together and sets the tone, and they are sensible to always find their place in our hearts.

 

A few excerpts to testify to the marvel of Barnes' talent.

‘Well,’ said Jane, trying to hide a sudden surge of jauntiness, I’ve always believed that writers get more out of things going wrong than things going right. It’s the only profession in which failure can be put to good use.’

‘Do you read those young men everyone’s going on about?’

‘No. I think they’ve got quite enough readers already, don’t you think?’

‘What about the young women everyone’s going on about?’

‘I suppose I pretend a little more to have read them than with the boys.’

‘So do I. Is that bad?’

‘No, I think it’s sisterly.’

 

A quote from him, but from another book - “Books say: She did this because. Life says: She did this. Books are where things are explained to you; life is where things aren't. I'm not surprised some people prefer books.”
― Julian Barnes, Flaubert's Parrot

Friday, 6 June 2025

Ildiko's thoughts on Laura Rise - Detained and The Corporation. Typologies and survival guide


In May, Ildiko read my latest novel and my first non-fiction book. She gave them both ratings on goodreads, but also talked about them in a couple of videos posted on her YouTube channel.

 

Laura Rise – Detained

The novel was published by the Bookworm Publishing House in March 2025 and tells the story of an aspiring writer who decides to publish her work under a male pseudonym. When the man enjoys success instead of her, Laura plans revenge, blinded by frustration. If you've ever felt you had to play a different role in order to be successful, or were outraged by injustice, you might enjoy this novel. You can order it here.

Ildiko's impressions of the novel can be found in the videos below:

- from minute 9:50 to 13:00 – here

- from beginning until minute 9:20 and then again from minute 24:12 here 

 


The Corporation. Typologies and survival guide

My first non-fiction book was published by Paralela 45 Publishing House in April 2024. The book centers on the typologies of bosses and colleagues that drain us of energy and motivation at work. It features stories from job interviews, resignations and dismissals, a Rom-English (a mix between Romanian and English) dictionary, and survival strategies for working with certain typologies.

Wondering if you're also a worker at the Labor-in-vain cooperative? If you've gone crazy or are there others who need clarity, strategy, communication and support? No, you're not crazy and you're not alone. There are many of us. And our stories are contained in this book. You can order it here.

Ildiko's impressions of the book can be found in the videos below:

- from minute 21:18 to 23:50 – here

- from minute 13:25 to 17:35  - here

Wednesday, 4 June 2025

The Plath Earth


As soon as you open the volume of poems by Ana Zaharia, you are sucked in a whirlwind. Verse after verse, the movement continues, and the author sprinkles feelings, pains, loneliness, wrapping them, at times, in questions that give rise to other questions.

The past, the reality are hard to put into words, but Anca succeeds extraordinarily. There will be many who will be displeased or offended by the verses in the book, but that will not change the truth that emerges from them. 

Tuesday, 3 June 2025

Work in Progress - Work Under Scrutiny

About those that suffer at work and are being accused of not doing anything.

(Please read the English translation below)


You don't do nothing!

When you're told that, you either freeze up or you scream. I'm very proud of how I reacted. I laughed and replied that everyone is entitled to an opinion. That means I haven't forgotten an important lesson - when someone thinks the worst of you, don't bother to prove them wrong!

And yes, I got annoyed whenever that line was used against me (and there were many times). But, thankfully, I've managed to remind myself that there are really so few things that matter and we get sometimes blinded by those that don't. If you, too, are in search of cleaning your perspective, to get a better look at what matters, take this post to heart. 

Let's just stay focused on only what matters!


Another case of those that suffer can be read here.

Monday, 2 June 2025

I Adore Ada Milea!

Yesterday evening I went to Quantic to see the concert of Ada Milea and the other three wonderful people (Anca Hanu, Bobo Burlăcianu, Cristi Rigman). Let us be crazy happy and happy to be crazy!


Long live the Arts!

Tuesday, 27 May 2025

Laura Rise - Detained at the Bookfest Book Fair

My latest novel, Laura Rise - Detained, will be on display during the Bookfest Book Fair (May 28 - June 1, 2025) at the Bookbite booth no. E12.

On Saturday, May 31st, at 4pm, I'll be stopping by the Bookbite booth to sign a few copies waiting to be bought by readers. If you'd like an autograph, either get there at the same time, or stop by the booth later to buy an autographed copy.

Bonus! A little treat for you with me reading an excerpt from Laura Rise - Detained. Check the English translation below the video.



Translation into English of the excerpt read in the above video:

As soon as I would notice her, I closed my notebook and stood up from my desk, giving her a discreet nod. Then, I'd walk out of the office and offer her my hand. Depending on the weather, we'd either go out in the courtyard in the sun and sit on a bench, or we'd sit on a bench in the hallway where the classrooms were. Holding her small, velvety little hand in my hand, I had a sense of bravery and a feeling that I could have protected this creature with my life. A small moment of silence would follow each time, as if Aria was giving me time to transpose myself back into the spirit of the story and get back into the characters' skin.

Miss, please continue the story’, Aria would then tell me.

And I would go on telling it. I was always aware of the limited time in which I had to finish the story, and I had already developed a knack for quickly finding an ending to the story I had started a short while before. At the end of it, the Deer always wore a smile, as if the ending I had told her had unfolded before her very eyes. She would thank me and go back to her classroom. I often stayed for a few moments in the place where Aria and I had been. As if it was too important a ritual to put off so easily. The children ran and screamed in the hallway, bustling toward the class that was soon to begin, but to me it felt like I was seeing them from another body, as if I could be in two different worlds at the same time that looked but felt nothing alike.

I've often wondered what became of Aria when she grew up, if she still seeks out stories and if she's as motivated to find out how they end. I wrote the story of the happy deer with her in mind, after a neighbor's little girl called me at the door to ask if I wanted to take in a cat.

Yes, this is exactly how she asked me. What a beautiful language children often speak! She held that ginger kitten in her little hands with such love and gentleness, that the tenderness I felt when I saw her made me think of the little deer-like Aria. In writing the story, I probably tried to see Aria as a grown-up, that's why the mother-deer, the main character of the story, is called Aria. I felt the need to imagine her as gentle, unchanged by the years that have passed or the world that must have left its mark on her in the meantime.

Friday, 23 May 2025

Hold on!


On the street, a lady says to her friends.

Remember this from me, it’s an Arab proverb I heard the other day. If the sun were always shining, everything would turn to desert. We need rain.’

Wednesday, 21 May 2025

Difficulties


I don’t know about others, but I have difficulties seeing my nephew as an adult (he will soon become one).

The other day, I was on speaker phone, and he asked me – So what’s new? What’s going on in your life?

And I got stuck. I don't talk to my nephew like that. Until yesterday I was worried about how to make him laugh and show him what cats are passing through the area. And now I'm going to tell him about my life? Is he ready for this? 😊 Would he understand? Or would I bore him? And, in fact, what is he asking me about?

I quickly came to my senses and mumbled something. But this worry has taken its toll on me. Things change, and I must adapt.

But even so, what do you do in these moments? How do you make the change?

Surely there are other uncles and aunts who have to face the same difficulties. How do you cope with them?

Sunday, 18 May 2025

Geniului no. 10 - Mircea Ignat, Florin Hălălău


'But what would we be today if the lives of those who gave us life were forever buried in oblivion?'

This is one of the questions included in the preamble to 'Geniului no. 10' and which led me to Maria Arsene's exhortation:


'Remember that memory must be bequeathed.

Lest it die with you.

Remember this! Remember this!'

 

While reading 'Geniului no. 10', I was happy to discover details about Bucharest that I didn't know and I saw streets and learned about people who no longer exist today, I travelled through eras, fears, hopes and desires for better. The life of each of us acquires a special value in the eyes of those who have been touched by our gestures, words or smiles.

Playing the game of remembrance seems to me as important as playing the game of gratitude. A beautiful encouragement for both is this very book, 'Geniului no. 10'.

Tuesday, 13 May 2025

Work in Progress - Work Under Scrutiny

(please read the English translation below)

In Corporation. Typologies and Survival Guide I put the highlight on those that drain our energy and motivation. I am now working on texts to show the stories of those who suffer, as well. A small excerpt can be found below about the question receiver.

 

Please read below the excerpt translated into English:

 

The Question Receiver

Stop answering our question with a question!

Especially when we've sent you a zillion emails to remind you to answer to our question.

We are slowly, but surely reaching the end of our patience. Our lone neuron is already showing signs of sliding into a bottomless pit. Help!’, it cries in a faint voice. If you don't care about us, at least take care of it, for it gets the job done.

Saturday, 10 May 2025

Video Book Review


In her latest video on YouTube, Alexandra talked about how she liked my latest novel. If you're curious, you can watch her video below (starting from 14:30 - only in Romanian). Thank you, Alexandra!

Friday, 9 May 2025

Thursday, 8 May 2025

My Highness


Although I am in a somewhat open competition with my nephew regarding who is the heighest, I am rather  forced to collect my victories from interracting with others, as well. Okay, I admitted last year that my nephew had outgrown me, but that happened a year ago. People get busy, they forget, and we can play with that.

Today my next-door neighbor stopped me to ask if I'd been looking for him. That someone had told him a tall, young lady from next door had been looking for him. I grinned with delight, told him that I hadn't been looking for him, but that I was glad he found me tall, and curtsied.

The man looked at me for a moment in amazement, but said nothing. Then it dawned on me that (impressively!) not everyone is aware of my youth and height. And maybe they should be!

Tuesday, 6 May 2025

Sunday, 4 May 2025

Vlad Lives On!


Today marks 103 years since Vlad Mușatescu was born. I’m so glad, dear master, that you came into this world and left us your books!

My 10reasons remain valid.

Friday, 2 May 2025

Ex Igni Natus – Alex Andronic


When I cry, I dissolve.

When I write, I rebuild myself.

I rebuild my flesh from paper,

I glue my soul with ink

until all that hurts becomes poetry.

(a stanza from the poem “Why do I write when I feel like crying?”)

 

Naturalness is the word to which I would summarize Alex Andronic's entire volume of poems. With one addition, that naturalness flows in two ways. You get the sense that the poet sat down, wrote the poems, and then they found their way to the reader. Far be it from me to think that they were written in haste, but the feelings, the images, the sensations show themselves to the reader with an extraordinary naturalness. And on the other hand, the reader accesses them marvelously simply. When things seem simple, there's a lot of complexity behind it, at least that much I know.

 

I found happiness

in the middle of an ordinary day,

in a corner of the beach

where clams swam

without fear of drowning.

 

I enjoyed reading Alex Andronic's novels (“Confused”, “Return to Myself” and “Remain to Me” ), and it was a delight to discover him now also as a poet. “The Puppeteer”, “The Coin of Love”, “The Shadow Show”, “Lemon Peel”, “What Would Time Say?” are just a few of my favorites.

It is natural to feel, although lately it seems to me that we are under pressure to hide ourselves, not to show that we feel, that we live, that we vibrate. I have enjoyed reading the volume “Ex Igni Natus” and savoring the uplifting thing that poetry does by making us remember that we are humans and that we feel.

And at the end, other stanzas, because you don't have to trust in the words I write, but in the lyrics:

 

A whispered voice slowly puts me down:

Success is not yours,

it's all a farce.

Every victory smells of deceit,

like a wax mask melting in the sun,

a cheap trick only I know.

 

My empty gaze,

in the mirror of doubt,

sees a foreign face, always someone else.

My successes are always happenstance,

accidents on wrong paths,

while the real me lies hidden behind the scenes.

(stanzas from the poem “The Shadow Show”)

Tuesday, 29 April 2025

‘The Corporation’ and ‘Laura Rise – Detained’


I am very glad to let you know that Ildiko has in her reading list my two latest books (non-fiction and fiction).

Thursday, 24 April 2025

Work in Progress

(if you don't have a sniper's vision, find the excerpt below in English)

Every writer's dream is to make a living with writing. I'm modest. All I want is a little house in the Bahamas. So I'm working hard at my writing. And maybe so this little country will come closer to me.

Generally, writing inspirations seek me out when I'm busy with other things – sleeping, taking a walk, reading or showering. But there are some topics that strike me, and our encounter is so violent that I find it hard to think of anything else; and when this happens, I write as if possessed, as if I am struggling in the dark and searching for light or struggling for air. 

The engine, though, with these topics is always the same - the outrage. That's how The Corporation’ came into being. The whole text is actually an outrage, and a call for others who feel the same to join me, with the aim of initiating the change.

Interacting with jobber-doctors (money-grubbers) and lackadaisical-doctors (bland, uncaring) served as inspiration for ‘Health Care Failures’, a non-fiction book about unpleasant experiences at the doctor's, about why it is important to ask for a second medical opinion and what to look out for when receiving a treatment plan.

The Argeș Magazine allowed me to publish an excerpt in its pages, for which I am particularly grateful (and special thanks go to Mrs. Simona Fusaru).

If you want to read the full issue (in Romanian), you can find it here


Below you can find the English translation of the excerpt that was published in the magazine:


Jobber-Doctors and Lackadaisical-Doctors

 

I’ve been living with the feeling of helplessness in dealing with doctors from various specialties over the last few years and if I could, I would have given anything to avoid the unpleasant experiences I have had. Talking to people, I discovered that I am not alone. That other people experience some things, as my dad would say, that boggles the mind. That others suffer too and feel terrified by their illness, terrified that they can no longer trust doctors and their advice. I have learned (from experience) or understood that it is better not to practice self-medication because then you can create even worse health problems. But in a world where there is this growing feeling that you are being ripped off or being treated just to pay good money, without any care for the patient or decency, how much trust can you put into doctors anymore?! In an increasingly ageing society in need of medical care, can we afford to lose faith in the health care system and hide the fact that some doctors are doing great harm, both to patients and to the health care domain?

I have been carrying this indignation with me for years and, unfortunately, it is growing, because around me doctors are no longer behaving as they should, but more like speculators or jobbers whose only aim is to build that villa with a swimming pool and not to give the best advice to patients. And in the end, the villa with the pool would not be a problem, except that it is already clear to me that they are not sparing their efforts only for themselves, but also for their future generations, and we patients are just good cows to milk.

A stinking and dangerous slime is spreading everywhere in medicine, and I am afraid we are all beginning to have the same reaction as we would regarding some corrupt politicians – they stole, but at least they did something for the community.

This book has as anti-heroes the doctors focused on making money, the jobber-doctors, and the blasé, uncaring doctors, namely the lackadaisical-doctors.

The heroes are the patients who have gone through more or less traumatic experiences and who have paid dearly and very dearly, i.e. at the expense of their health, for falling victim to the above categories of doctors, believing that they would consider the Hippocratic oath - which encompasses the moral duties of doctors in the exercise of their profession and which can be succinctly explained as Do no harm!.

……

 

Periodontitis

According to the statistics, 8 out of 10 Romanians suffer from periodontitis, being the sixth most common disease in Romania. In recent years, there has been an increase in the number of cases of periodontitis in young people, although a few years ago this disease was only attributed to elderly people.

What is periodontitis?

Periodontitis is the inflammation of the tissue that supports and anchors the teeth. The disease is manifested through inflammation and infection of the gums, and in advanced cases, pus pockets can also develop, which destroy the gum tissue and affect the structure of the teeth, which begin to wobble and fall out. As there is often confusion between periodontitis and gingivitis, it is important to understand that gingivitis is a superficial inflammation of the gums that, left untreated, can lead to periodontitis.

There is an explosion of periodontal treatments, as well as naturopathic treatments, and here too, speculating on Romanians' fear and confidence that they can heal themselves, various miracle solutions are being promoted that can completely regenerate your gum tissue and solve advanced periodontitis. Of course, there are also marketing gimmicks. A simple Google search for herbal treatments led me to the product title tincture for periodontosis, but the product label clearly, albeit small, mentions tincture for gingivitis.

Another wonder-product I found is a gum-regenerating solution, but the product's English-language label claims that the solution is recommended to be used only after dental procedures (scaling, tooth extraction, etc.) for gum pain relief. So, scams go hand in hand everywhere, and if you are gullible or desperate enough, you try them all, sometimes causing more harm. I'm not discounting the importance of herbal treatments for certain mild conditions, but I understand that severe ones cannot be treated with hawthorn tea, for example.

We also learn about miracle solutions from TV commercials. For example, certain toothpastes that promise a cure, or in the case of periodontitis, this is impossible with just using toothpaste.

I was terribly amused by a dialogue from the Argentinian TV series "Envious", which I reproduce below.

Mom: She's beautiful now, but you'll see in some years that beauty doesn't last. You know, don't you?

Son: Mom, it's not about that.

Mom: Oh, but it is! You think everything stays in its place?! No. I'm telling you, everything goes down. All of it! You know what’s the only thing that goes up?! Gums!

 

Periodontal Flap Surgery

If we are talking about periodontitis that has already passed the incipient stage, dentists recommend periodontal flap surgery. This involves subgingival cleaning of dead tissue, tartar deposits and possibly pus pockets. Because this procedure is quite invasive, and the gums need time to heal afterwards, it is not recommended to do it too often, possibly every five years. But when money is at stake, what does the fragility of gum tissue matter?

 

Excerpt from ‘Health Care Failures’, a book about jobber-doctors and lackadaisical-doctors

Saturday, 19 April 2025

The Man Who Forgot His Wife – John O’Farrell


I was delighted to discover his fabulous humor in "The Best A Man can Be", and since then I've made it a point to buy John O'Farrell's books with the confidence that comes from knowing that reading a book will give you exactly what you're looking for.

And it has. The pleasure of reading his books is masterfully underpinned by fine humor that can't help but put you in a good mood. "The Man Who Forgot His Wife" is just what the doctor ordered when you need a reminder to take things less seriously.

John O'Farrell's books should be in every reader's bookcase, for we all need to be reminded how important it is to laugh.

And now, a few excerpts.

 

“…

As the judge entered the room, I was struck by the fact that he was not wearing the traditional headpiece. ‘Oh, no wig!’ I heard myself blurt out. The judge heard and looked at me. Now I was suddenly worried that he was in fact wearing a toupee, and that saying ‘no wig’ might not have been the best way to get on his good side.

‘Divorce judges don’t wear wigs, Vaughn – it’s not Open Court,’ my lawyer whispered. And we both attempted a polite smile at the judge, but my willpower was not quite strong enough to hold eye contact with him and I glanced momentarily at the top of his lushly carpeted head.

… 

 

Maddy and I are on a train. It is before people have mobile phones, because no one is shouting, ‘I’m on a train!’

‘This is a passenger announcement … ‘ (Back then we are only ‘passengers’; it is before we are regraded as ‘customers’ so that we can be that much more indignant when we don’t get what we paid for).

…. 

 

‘Do I know what it’s like to lose my identity?’ she spat in disbelief. ‘Are you serious? Before I married you I was “Madeleine”. Not “Vaughn’s wife” or “Jamie’s mum” or “Dillie’s mum”. I existed in my own right as me. I was Maddy the photographer who earned her own money doing something she loved. But then suddenly there was no time for that and nobody wanted to talk to me about me any more. It was all, “What does your husband do?” And, “How old are your children” or, the double-whammy, “So will your kids go the school where your husband teaches” So do I know what it’s like to lose my identity? Yes, I do. Every bloody wife and mother has known that since the dawn of fucking time-’

…. 

Tuesday, 15 April 2025

First Impressions about My New Novel, Laura Rise – Detained


I jumped around the house filled of joy, while listening to the wonderful words Alexandra complimented my novel with.

You can watch starting with 14:35 (only in Romanian) by clicking here.

Monday, 14 April 2025

What’s your name?


I'm used to getting in trouble because of my last name, but the first name has never been a problem. Okay, I must admit, it happened once when someone insisted on calling me Iulia, mentioning that it's much easier than Emilia.

But it seems to get complicated with my first name, too. I was in a taxi and the driver asked me out of the blue.

‘But is your name really Emilia?’

‘Sorry?’

‘Is your name really Emilia?’

‘Yes, that's my first name. Yes.’

‘Oh, my name is Emanuel and I thought that maybe you didn't want to write your name as Emanuela and put Emilia, because it's easier.’

‘.... (or as a friend of mine would say, you can hear the crickets chirping!)’

Friday, 11 April 2025

Curiosities about my new novel ֦Laura Rise - Detainedʺ

You can read the script below, under the video.


Hello! I promised you some curiosities about my new novel ֦Laura Rise- Detainedʺ.

Every novel is an entity. It has its own story, but also curiosities, as is the case with this novel. Let me tell you some of them!

1. I didn't find out until after publication that there is a writer called Laura Rise. A dear friend asked me if I was inspired by her life. No!

2. The gorgeous cover 1 has the figure of a man and a woman, and this is harmoniously interwoven with what appears on cover number 4, the review written by a woman and one written by a man. It's a perfect circle, even by chance!

3. After I published the previous video explaining the motivation behind the writing of the novel, I also received compliments on the clothing chosen to match the novel's cover. That was also purely coincidental, but it's good to be fashionable. I am very curious to find out what curiosities you have discovered in my new novel, and if you'd like to find out more information or purchase a copy, please find the link in the first comment (https://www.bookworm.ro/product-page/laura-rise-detinuta-emilia-muller ).

Sunday, 6 April 2025

What does growing up look like

For a few years now I've noticed a change. Regarding colors. I stopped looking for or finding preferences for other colors. I still stick to yellows, emerald-greens and purples (mauves, for friends).

Instead, I'm very keen on fir trees. I delight in looking at them and have been itching to get them close. As much as I can. Actually, very little - with the help of a mug.

And delighting in this closeness, I sat and wondered if I had not reached maturity (there are some who are waiting for it, I still have reservations), if this certain steadfastness cannot be called that. What does maturity look like?

And I found the answer. When you order a mug, but you also buy another one, to keep it as a spare. You hide it somewhere good, so in case you break one, you can easily replace it. If that's not growing up, I don't know what is!

Thursday, 3 April 2025

Review for 'The Corporation'

It's almost Friday, as the guys from the Morning Glory morning show say in order to lift up our spirits. If you're looking for a book to cheer you up and make you feel you're not alone, then 'The Corporation. Typologies and Survival Guide' is your pick.

Thank you so much, Alexandra, for your review!

Saturday, 29 March 2025

Mister Aznavour

Photo source - imdb

I had come to love Charles Aznavour ever since I was a little girl and saw him in a TV show, Le Chinois (translated from the French, The Chinese), which I really liked. I had come to believe that you can only really ponder on something, and find the answer, if you roll a pair of metal spheres in the palm of your hand. My father is surely responsible for the fact that I learned that Charles Aznavour was not only an actor but also a singer. It only took him once to make me pay attention to the fact that the song on the radio was sung by Charles, and I became a fan.

I always listened to Aznavour with a sweet kind of melancholy, and I was assured that it was because he reminded me of my childhood, of a time when I thought that if I could find some metal spheres I was to be not only a famous detective, but also be able to accomplish anything I set my mind to.

Over the years, La Bohème would always remind me of my first trip to Paris (and Zaz's Je veux, of course!) and as the years went by, the lyrics were no longer just accompanying a beautiful melody, but also a meaning that spoke to me more and more.

Now, after seeing the movie Mr. Aznavour, written and directed by Mehdi Idir and Grand Corps Malade, I love Aznavour even more. It's true, the movie is a masterpiece, the way the camera portrays the actors, the dialogue, the acting and the remembering or reference to his songs - not too tiresome or sensation-seeking - make it one of the best biographical movies.

Learning the story behind Je m'voyais déjà (it also touched me deeply to learn the story behind the song Emmenez-moi), I felt pure admiration for Charlez Aznavour's perpetual struggle in his quest for fame. To be able to believe in yourself when all you get in response (from critics, from the public) are constant invectives and constant repetitions that you have no talent, that you don't perform well on stage, that you don't have the right voice and so on and so forth, is very hard to do, almost impossible (who knows how many other artists couldn't go through with it and gave up!).

Tahar Rahim, the actor who masterfully plays Aznavour, has a wonderful line in the movie - from today I will work even harder, much harder until I succeed.

Of course, hard work can bring you success, but it doesn't guarantee it, that's where resilience comes in, to keep pushing and pushing even if those around you tell you to give up. And talking about success and resilience reminded me of a comment I received for this article - What do you do if your idea is just plain bad? Perseverare diabolicum est (translated from the Latin, to persevere in error is diabolical). Looking back at Aznavour's story, he had far more reasons to give up and he should have stopped long ago, but he persevered.

This is actually the point I make in this article, neither hard work nor resilience guarantees success. Perhaps what matters in the end is that you didn't let yourself down, you kept believing in yourself. Maybe the journey is the most important, and not necessarily whether or not you achieve what you set out to accomplish. Perhaps what needs to be first reaped from hard work are the laurels of one's own self-confidence.